Life.

Life: the course of existence or sum of experiences and actions that constitute a person's existence. Experiences and actions; each of which coincide to convey an individual's life. Each experience is the result, or shall I say consequence, of a particular progression of actions one makes. Each decision, each action, each experience, constitutes what we see as "life".

But what justifies one to boast a "good life"? Is it the 4.0 grade point average? Is it the consistent interest by surrounding females? Or the "perfect body"? How about the money and the fame? Not one of these "experiences" applies to my life; maybe it's just who I am, or maybe it is because of the "actions" i chose to make or not make.

I have always been told to never regret any action you make. But I also have come to notice that "As you grow older, you'll find the only things you regret are the things you didn't do". Not a great way to progress, but each and every day I infest my mind with "Why didnt i do this differenty? Why didnt I say this? or Why didnt I do that?". But rather than act, it transforms into another thing I "didnt do"; In other words, Regret.

This year has erected the once again "rollercoaster" that i am once again riding. Highs, Lows, Corkscrews, Dips, and Dives. Of course variation is necessary; however, I have ridden the same ride too many times.

Experiences have occurred strangely similarly on multiple occasions. These experiences have all been consequences of a different sequence of actions. So what am I supposed to do? Persistence failed, and now ambition is fading.

I am tired. I am tired of predictability, tired of confusion, and tired of being tired.

Deal. Heal. Fill the Void. Move on.

I can only do that for so long.

My "life" is at a point of content, satisfaction. But who is a fan of that "check - plus". I guess i have to keep with the same routine. Keep your head up, Be ambitious.

Easier said than done. Is it still worth it?