Fresh.

So. Here We are.

At a place where I promised myself never to be.

I let certain things bother me to the point where i couldn't control it. They were finally verbally expressed, and just made things worse. It's unfortunate of the way I have become accustomed to handling these type of situations, but I am not sorry. I've been trying to tell myself that this isn't the best way to handle things, but at this point, I could care less. As selfish as it is, I have to think about me.

I let certain things take control of my first quarter. I was in jeopardy once again of failing out of college. I had priorities that needed to be tended to, but consequently focused on others. I was too caught up in "reading into things". I was too caught up wondering "what if". I didn't realize that either of those things were completely not the case. I spent too much time doing the previously mentioned. And i regret it. Of course, I developed one of the closest friendships I've had in awhile; but, the agenda on both parts were completely different. Intentions were completely different. Feelings were completely different.

I let certain things happen. I must not let them happen again. New Years Resolution Number 4: Don't Get Sprung So Easily. So much easier said than done.

I let certain things bring out an immaturity in myself. I am not placing blame on anything or anyone; but, I have noticed lately that I have started to handle things in a much more immature way. The smallest of things have lately been the biggest occurrences that have triggered situations. Yeah, you should live by the saying "Be the bigger man (person), Swallow Your Pride, Get Over It"; Just like the my new years resolution, Easier said than done.

"I let certain things": A common theme, a repetitive theme, a theme I must no longer live by. Saying this is just placing blame on something that should not. This is a situation that should not bother me this much. But like i was talking to my brother ryan last night, the smallest of things can bring out the biggest emotions. How does this apply? you might ask? Well. Let's keep this short.

• Things bother me way too easily
• I need to get my priorities straight (School is most important)
• I need to not open up to people so easily
  

So. Here We Are.

Still at a place where I promised myself never to be.